This week has been a blur and this will be short, but there more be more later after I can get some rest. I was going to write about my New Year's resolution, which will just have to wait for a bit.
For now I just want to ask for prayers for my baby. He was admitted into the NICU at the local children's hospital for RSV and possible other issues. He is doing ok, but not out of the woods yet.
It can be so easy to go through days, months and years forgetting what real problems feel like and look like.
When your baby gets sick, every other worry just melts away and all you can think about is doing everything you can to make them feel better. You forget what time or day it is and what bills need to be paid or laundry needs to be completed. As I'm sure most parents can attest, you would do anything to take the pain they are feeling away and have it happen to you.
As they spent more than a half hour the other day in the ER poking and prodding his arm for a vein to stick the IV in as he screamed harder and longer than I have ever heard him scream I thought how am I supposed to be the mom? I can't handle this. I can't possibly do this without a lot of support. Then I was reminded of something amazing.
In the middle of this storm and chaos, I already had everything I ever needed. I have someone who will hold me up when I can't walk and who will carry me when I can't make it any further. I love the song by Casting Crowns "Praise You In This Storm". You can read the lyrics here.
I honestly believe all the things that happen in our lives, the good, the bad and the difficult all serve a purpose and help shape us into the people we are. They are our chance to grow in our faith and become the people God intended us to be.
It's not always easy. I've struggled with it a lot in the past few days, but it is possible to take the difficulties and create opportunities. I spent a lot of time reciting a photo I still have that my confirmation sponsor gave me oh so many years ago, "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference."
More later, but in the meantime please keep my baby boy in your prayers. He is struggling but we have all hope he will be just fine in the next week or weeks.
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About Me
- Mamacita
- Pennsylvania
- I'm a mommy, wife and educated woman with an inquisitive mind. I am always looking in ways to challenge and grow in my faith. Many wise people I have known have reminded me if I am not growing, I am going in the wrong direction.
4 comments:
I know I can relate in a sense and I know my mom can surely relate to some of what you are going through...the hospital is a whole other world you didn't realize was so close. It's like no where you have ever been.
I'm sure if you want to email my mom or cousin Maggie whose little girl was in with RSV over Christmas, they'd love to talk or on the phone although I know that is limited. Let me know.
Prayers and love,
Rach
Oh sweetie! My heart just aches as I read this!!! I am so sorry you all are going through this!
Having done the whole NICU thing and being scared to death for my child's life, I can tell you that Tim and I are praying for you all - in a way that we know you need. We get it.
HUGS!!!
The prayers will keep coming and I will see you tomorrow.
Love
MOM
Well what a week+ ... so good that he's back home and on the mend!
Thank you for a beautiful post :-), but more importantly thanks for a beautiful family.
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